Fourth year college is equals to: deadlines,thesis,terror prof. (Who doesn’t care about the fact that you want to graduate), conflicts and none stop drama in life.Also fourth year college is where fear builds up the most:the fear of not passing, the fear of the unknown future, the fear of what’s going on right now, the fear of disappointing your love ones and the fear of the unending ‘what ifs’ and ‘why not’ ,but in spite of all that you tried to be positive and for once you want to believe in yourself thinking that everything will be “okay” but as usual your best will never be enough it will always be; almost done, almost pass , almost did it but it never goes according to the way you planned it to be. You not knowing what to do, not know whom to tell and not knowing anything anymore wants to end everything.
Every time, you want to disappear or you want to give up remember that everything will pass and move on, so you too should go on in life and move forward; I know how hard it is to chill with all the things in your shoulder but once in a while think back and look why you’re doing this: I hope it is not to make everyone happy or proud of you or to think that you just have to do this for people to acknowledge your existence, I hope that reason will always be because you want it, because it will make you happy and proud. It’s because you finally want to say that “YOU DID IT!”. Finishing your degree is not for everyone but it’s for you; so when everything is going in a bad direction look back to the first time you entered this university/college in fear of everything and now just one more year, just two more semester this will all be worth it.
“The Sad thing is, Suicide doesn’t end the pain it just passes it to someone else.” anonymous