At the end of the day no matter how many times she smile and laugh with you, she’s not okay; deep inside her are things she can’t explain, things she can’t express or she doesn’t have the courage to let you know. No matter how hard she tries; telling herself that everything will be fine, everything will be right and everything will pass at the back of her mind she just wish for her life to pass away. It’s an unending thought of how this world is much better without her, how she doesn’t know how to fixed her problem and how she can’t tell it to someone else because they would just look down on her and tell her that what she’s facing right now is petty.
Do you even notice how good she is in pretending to be okay while having a war on her mind; so please stop telling her that it’s okay because it’s not! Do you even know what it’s like?, In the morning she find it so hard to wake up to convince her self that this day; she will be happy, that this day that heavy clouds will not hinder her and that for once she will feel like herself again because she miss herself too and she hates it when she cries without reason and when everybody’s asking her but she doesn’t know it too tears just flow and her heart just suddenly sink.
So when you see her please stop asking why,stop telling her to care for other people, stop telling her how much your life is worse than what she’s experiencing right now because she already know and she want to stop too but she can’t, that in what ever she does this sadness and depressing thought just came in and tears just suddenly flow down her eyes.Stop telling to be okay because she’s not and sometimes to support her you just need to shut your mouth and listen to her; even if you don’t understand a thing that she’s saying, no matter if your against her thoughts and even if you just don’t get it, just shut your mouth because she doesn’t need your sermon, she just needs YOU.